The Perfect Woman Updated

A Woman who will love me as much as I love her. That's it, but even that is probably too much to ask for. I've had three major heart surgeries (psshh), a splenectomy (piece of cake),and cheated death three times (ho-hum) but all of that pales to the pain that I feel right now. Not just this girl, but all of the Women failures in my lifetime. I just can't take anymore of this. My past posts have all been about one-night stands, hit it and quit it, etc. but what I really and truly want is that special someone who just makes me happy. If I ever do find her, my God she will be spoiled with move love and affection than she could ever imagine, but alas it probably is not in the cards for me.